the kids are alright.

i'm not gonna lie to you, internets. i've had my heart set on watching the kids are alright since those goddamn commercials started 6 months ago. i hate when they do that---they advertise the shit out of a "limited released" film that shows in like 6 theaters domestically and then they set the dvd release 6 months later. i hate it!!!!!!!!!! i'm very passionate about my movies. funny, i was actually talking to ragan about our shared passion of the cinema...funny.

anyway. the kids are alright is a brilliant movie that came out on itunes for rent a few days ago and i've been dying to see it. the reviews (6 fucking months ago) were amazing but i couldn't see it in theater because like i said: it was in limited release aka inaccessible to the goddamn suburbs, and also (not said earlier) because it's about a gay couple. it's unfortunate, but even today, even with us, there is still some sort of stigma (i use and misuse this word too much) about wanting to see a movie like this. admittedly, there was gay sex...but that wasn't the fucking point. the movie was amazing and i have a huge crush on mark ruffalo. or whatever the hell his scruffy, beautifully sculpted (arms) name is.

the movie is set in california, and i won't bore you with any more details (you've got to see it yourself) but it was a beautiful setting. with julianne moore's hair, and the california sun and rufallo's sexy scruff, i was in heaven. unfortunately, when the movie finished i was not as happy as one would think. this always happens to me, and i'm frankly sick of it. here's the deal:

i'm such an influenceable person that even a movie can sway my emotions for days and days. sometimes i fall in love and retain a giddy feeling for way too long (e.g. Adventureland, The Social Network, Psycho) and other times (most times) i become depressed: i experience withdrawl symptoms as if i miss watching the movie (The Kids Are Alright, Harry Potters, The Invisible, When Harry Met Sally)

this is not where i wanted to go with this. i wanted to navigate more towards why i'm feeling so sullen now. i think mostly because i'm lonely (wow you're writing a blog and you're lonely? how original) right now and i'm jealous of stupid mia warskjklagjs (i don't know why i say the actor's name instead of the character's) going off to college in stupid california. fuck. and it's pretty dark in here. i need some vitamin d. oh wait. it's night time and winter time so no sun forever. fuck.