kristen stewart? suck my dick.

ok, let's just get it out there, once and for all----me and kristen stewart draw a few comparisons. you think i don't get that? i'm oblivious? or maybe it's the opposite---maybe you think i worship the ground at her feet, she is my idol, and i try to imitate everything about her. if you think that, go to hell. 

as for all the jokes made, i just don't understand. i don't understand how few of my FRIENDS recognize that they bother me. because really, i don't find them funny. i don't get it. what am i supposed to say back? nothing? or should i say, "haha you're sooo right." or even "hahaha oh, ____, you can think what you want, i don't care." no. SCREW YOU. seriously. for having that little respect for me.

this whole thing started with adventureland, which i have to say, i earned the jokes for. i was a little obsessed, but i never thought that it manifested itself in such an obvious-i-want-to-look-like-her way. then she kept popping up in the movies that were based off of books i fucking loved (into the wild, speak...) then, twilight, which made every sane person hate her. (which is part of the immediate emotional pain--being compared to someone whom everyone hates and makes fun of.) apparently, i dress[ed] similarily to bella....in all honestly, i never, ever, purposely set out to resemble her or model myself after any character or actress...that is just so fucking stupid. knowing that it is stupid is also part of the hurt---that you think that low of me. and the jokes would be funny once, maybe twice. but after three years? c'mon.           so i get that part of the fun is that it makes me squirm, and i get part of it is poking fun at me for appearing to purposely dress and/or be like her. but i don't like the jokes. so please, be a friend and stop making them.


thanks.

(an attempt at concession, but mostly me expressing yet another angry emotion)