the perks of being a wallflower

i always bring books on trips with long car rides, and i never end up reading them. i rarely read books in general. i think this may be because when i do, they fucking hurt me. or because i'm lazy.

so roxy borrowed me the perks like a month ago, and i finally read it. last night, i was at my grandparents house and i was really bored, so i put in my headphones to tune everyone out and started reading. and at first i was like "what the fuck is wrong with this kid." and then i was like, "why did roxy think i would want to fucking read a child called it?!"and then i was like holy fucking shit. i sat there for like, six hours or so and read it (i'm a pretty slow reader) and i fucking cried and the only time i put the book down voluntarily was toward the end when *spoiler alert* we learn why charlie's so fucked up. and i put it down and my eyes couldn't focus on anything and i started scratching my right arm furiously even though it didn't itch (my version of a panic attack). and then i finished it and felt happy, and sad, and weird.

i don't know what to fucking think.

there are some quotes i fucking love and are probably a-floating in tumblr land somewhere...
i'd like to think their unique to me, and i'm the only one who loves them, but i know i ain't. anyways.. this is my favorite.** there's a lot more heartbreaking & insightful shit in the book. there's a lot of really simple shit about certain characters that you read and then you're onto the next line and then it hits you. *spoiler part* like for those who have read it: when patrick starts kissing charlie because he is so drunk and devastated and charlie just goes with it because he wants to be patrick's friend. and then later sam is all like, why did you let him do that? that is just great. and i really hope in the movie they keep the cigarette smoking thing. for some reason i keep thinking they're going to take it out. but i think it is so important to charlie as a character...that he just starts it even though he doesn't really want to. he just does it to be a friend and then it goes full circle with him smoking alone, and you're just like, why is he smoking. i don't know, it was stuff like that even more than the molestation, etc. that really killed me. OH! and when he took lsd and you don't know til the end and you're like that poor baby. anyway, that kid is cray and i love him even though he's fictional.

**fav quote
"i think that if i ever have kids, and they are upset, i won't tell them that people are starving in china or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. and even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. good and bad."



i'm also really anxious about the movie. for the first time in my life, i'd prefere unknown actors to play these guys. idk why. i saw paul rudd is playing bill and idk...it feels less personal this way. also, i looked on imbd and the guy who plays patrick is pretty strange looking, which sounds awful, but it's just not at all how i pictured him . the guy who's playing charlie is pretty cute. emma watson...i saw on youtube a video of her doing an american accent and it was pretty shitty, so i'm worried about that. and the smoking thing. idk why but that's really important to me. and the nineties thing. i'm sure they'll get that right though cuz studios love that shit.

p.s. sorry i dog-eared some pages on your book, roxy.

um.

DECISION 2012

i've made up my mind.

the movie was great.

i wanna see it again.

any takers should contact me.

the girl with the dragon tattoo: spoiler alerts

if i could walk into that theater again and turn left instead of right, i would do so in heartbeat. playing in the left theater was the horrendous alvin and the chipmunks two, and in the right: the girl with the dragon tattoo.

holy mother of god.

do not see this movie.

or maybe you should, i haven't fully decided. but what i can tell you is if you see this movie, you will die a little on the inside, maybe a lot, if you're me. and as everybody's mother i must tell you to cover your eyes at the dirty parts. or you will feel as i feel now: dead inside. absolutely crushed. or again...maybe you won't. i know i think of movies too pretensiously and have a tendency to take a lot of feeling from the theater with me.

i really wanted to write about my reaction to this movie, but suddenly i'm having trouble putting it into words... i'll start from the beginning, i guess..

- i was borrowed the book this summer, tried to read it, several times, and quit. of course, i originally wanted to read it because i had seen a lot of hype about it in entertainment weekly, not because it was a worldwide bestseller, for like, a couple of years...

i don't who has read it (courtney?) but if you have, i give you props. that's an amazing feat.

- don't get me wrong, the movie was FUCKING AMAZING. like, no words for david fincher (the social network, fight club, benjamin butt), he is the god of all modern day directors in my eyes... and when i say fucking amazing i mean, like a really great, intense, gripping, crazy-well-acted film that deservingly recieved an A from entertainment weekly (and they don't just hand that shit out.)

- there are two very different, very horrifying, very explicit/detailed rape scenes, that i need to worn you about. most people in the world have read the book and know this, but yeah...i was even warned about them by entertainment weekly so many months ago when they were doing updates on it. but i was not prepared for this shit. i repeatedly covered erin's eyes with her hood, but kept hypocritically sneaking glances and i really, really, really wish i hadn't.

- there is something crazy disturbing and mesmerizing (i use this word too much) about lisbeth/rooney mara (the actress). it's transfixing to watch her with daniel craig because their chemistry is really believable..and sexual.. (to paraphrase an e.w. article on the movie, which i've naturally read 10 times at this point.) also, i need to say it, daniel craig is ssssexy as hell in this movie. never thought so before, but dayum.

i originally left the post at "dayum" but i'm going back now to re-emphasize: do not see this movie if you can't handle really, really, really, really explicit shit. and this is coming from me, someone who really likes boasting about how she has "seen it all" and is a really edgy person. im not sure if that's gon translate righttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttohhhhhhhhhhnoooooooooooo

probably the reason i originally gave my soul over to the animals

ah hal

saturday mornings when someone decides to shovel outside my window or some shit

robyn/meryl videos

i don't know what's happening here...but i like it...i think?

1. It can be extremely funny, depending on your mood
2. Her shoes are craycray !!
3. The spasticness of her seemingly unchoreographed dancing is fucking mesmerizing and refreshing and awesome
4. Lyrics are that rare kind of pop song awesome
5. Featured as one of EWs top music videos of the year...pretty sure i just made that up

slowly narrowing my audience so it only includes myself...

SHIT JUST GOT REAL.

OK GUYS.
i've been impressed with this man ever since i saw his name under writer on some 30 rock credits and then google-imaged him to find that he was troy from muthafuckin' Community (which is secretly the best show ever except might be canceled: see evidence at end of post.)

but up until this point i've admired him as a talented writer, comedian, actor, and rapper. i thought of him as a friend---like i literally fantasized about us meeting and becoming buddy-buddy but in a nice platonic way. NORMAL, MMMMK?

anyway...i got into his new rap album camp and like...i can't deny it anymore... I FUCKING LOVE HIM

evidence Community is canceled:

1. i read a rumor about it on EW.com
2. it's no longer on spring line-up because of fucking Whitney
3. THIS

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