in keeping with my last-minute/irresponsible/lethargic/despondent approach to college, i just signed up for my orientation date.

i went downstairs to do it in the presence of my parents so they could confirm dates/fees/etc. after the third "continue" button i burst out into tears and exclaimed, "i just want to go to a community college so i don't have to do this sh-stuff!"

my parents, alarmed, assured me i'd still have to do this at a community college. this fact lured my brain into thoughts about the no-college option and it's been resting in that pool of opportunity ever since then.


but anyway, this round of motherfuckery got me thinking about how people tried to push me to go elsewhere and were very supportive in my dreams of moving west. two people wrote in my yearbook, insisting i go to california (at some point). and i don't know, i guess just knowing that i'm being heard and understood is sincerely comforting. (thank you to those people)